Bading ka? Hindi Halata.

I always get this from people whom I tell about my sexual orientation, especially from straight men who think I'm one of them when in fact I'm really one of "them." lol

Never Going Back

Today made me realize that I will never go back to the kanto gym. The reason being that today, I was an arm span close to hot hot hot Brazilian-Japanese models

Hideo Muraoka

and Daniel Matsunaga

as well as Filipino-Italian model/dancer Angelo Caciatorre.

Though I am not sure if they use the shower area and the sauna. But if they do and I chance upon these guys inside the sauna, I would die of extreme heat--from the sauna and the inside. lol...

One time while I was in Gold's Libis, I was side by side Ian Batherson at the treadmill and my ten minute cool down jog became 15 minutes.

Even if it will cost me 15 grand for a year's worth of membership, I wouldn't mind, as long as guys like them would be around. lol. Of course, not only because of these guys but also the benefit of having all those machines and the comforts of working out in an air-conditioned place and having a nice hot shower afterwards.

Straight Talk is B*llshit

At the office, there are a few younger straight men from our batch that is driving the hell out of me. Everytime they talk, it seems that nothing comes out but bullshit, crap and loads of more of shit.

These younger straight guys talk like they're the most masculine of men, when in fact I look more masculine than they do. In the gay porn industry, they're sort of the twink types. What bugs me the most is how they talk. Take note, how and not what they talk about. The reason being is that the word 'pre short for pare becomes a prefix and suffix for all the words they utter.

To give you an example, here is how they talk:

'Pre, alam mo ba tong ganito 'pre?

Solid 'pre, chicks na chicks 'pre!

Gutom na ko 'pre, kain tayo 'pre.

Gwapo mo 'pre, pakiss nga 'pre.

The last one's not true. lol.

To make it sound more annoying is the emphasis they put on the 'pre. Just like how Kuya Dick would say 'pre when he's on his paminta roles.

I am not sure if they're trying to sound more masculine or whatever it is they want to convey, but it sounds so pretentious and unrealistic for me. What's more annoying is how boisterous they are, like kids from college who wants to prove that they fit into the adult world. I am not sure if this is due to their youth or they are just plain annoying.

I have straight guy friends but when we talk, or I hear them talk, they never make it sound like they way these guys at the office do. They are never boisterous and they never emphasize on 'pre that much.

I am never comfortable with pare, because I use 'tol all the time when addressing my straight friends, male of female. For these guys at the office, all I can say is they make straight talk bullshit.

Silver Spoon

When I was younger, especially during my teenage years, I have always had this wish that I was born from a rich family. If we were rich, I wouldn't have to worry about having only minimal allowances. I would have new clothes every week, a high-end cellphone, go to hot spots to go on gimmicks with friends, be in a nicer house and do all the things that a teenager would do.

However, I was not. I wouldn't say that we were poor and I was a very unfortunate person, but I would have had the best things in life.

Now, as I look back on those days, I begin to realize that there is a reason for all of those. In my new work, I have two new workmates that came from a rich background. Both graduated from College of St. Benilde. One was from the south and the other one from the wealthy part of Mandaluyong. Both have cars and both have, you know, likes and interests that are very different from mine.

We clicked though, but I am still cautious of things because I know that there is a difference between us that sort of creates this animosity within me. I have nothing against these people born with a silver spoon in their mouths but I try to gauge the level of closeness that I create with them for reasons that I don't know of. I think I'm just being silly in this part.

I am not judging these two new found "friends" of mine but based on what we have shared within the past month that we have known each other, I am guessing that these people have not even touched a broom once in their lives. Let alone experience that hardships that I had to go through growing up without money. This is just a hypothesis and this hypothesis is based from what I have observed and what I know of people having the same background as they do. I am not being judgmental here but I a just stating something I have observed.

Anyway, back to my story. I am glad that I was not born rich. For if I was, I would not have known how to take care of myself and manage a home. Today, I just finished doing two weeks of laundry, and I am proud of myself for doing so because if I have been born rich, my mother would not have asked me to wash my own clothes or cook the meal for dinner, do the dishes and all sorts of household chores that I know many of us have dreaded to do when we were younger.

Because of the training back at our humble home with few money, non-state-of-the-art appliances and no air-conditioning, I wouldn't have made it for the five years of my life that I have lived on my own. Although I live with a partner in a pseudo-married state, sharing tons of work at home is still a big responsibility.

I thank my parents for not being rich and for not letting me grow up with a silver spoon in my mouth for I wouldn't have made it to where I am today, taking care of myself and a someone special.

As for my new "friends," being able to see them in an independent state just like I did, would be a very nice thing to see, so as to disprove my hypothesis that people like them are different from people like me.

VSFS Theme II

In continuation with the VSFS fever. I have made another design complete with wings. The theme is called Gypsy Dreams. The outfits are designed by Gypsy designs; color and all. Here's one so far. What'ya think?

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas Everyone!

Although I am alone on Christmas day and spent Christmas eve at the office... But it's fine...

I got myself the perfect Christmas gift this year. A three month membership at Gold's Gym--but its discounted... From less than P22,000 i got it for P4,200. Sweet right? So Summer 2012, be ready.. haha!

Again, Merry Christmas y'all!

VSFS Theme

Told ya, there will be a VSFS craze after watching the VSFS 2011 even if I find it so-so. Anyway, I came up with my own theme with a 12-piece outfits sketches complete with wing designs that I hope *fingers crossed* may end up in the list of ideas of VSFS design team. Even just short-listed, I will be happy. Even just coming across this blog. I will be happy. lol

The theme is called Space Age. The theme is mostly about what you will find in outer space. This one is different from the Star Troopers theme from the 2009 show because that one was more futuristic.

So let us start with the first look. The theme begins with the story of an astronaut.

from Earth

who traveled in a space ship

and went into orbit

went past the meteors,

the stars

and satellites.

She met an alien

and another alien

with their alien mother .

To wrap it up, this is a story of the planets and space exploration

in search of the the sun goddess.

So what do you guys think? Wishing for the VSFS team to see these... lol